• a m z y a m i •: 69 - Up and Down, happens all the time.

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I tend to write for fun. There's no specific theme for this blog, thus the entries are vary. Some entries may be personal, some may not. But since I post them up publicly I guess that makes no difference.

Writing, is a way of expressing. This medium let mute people speak their minds. This medium let those with low self-esteem to be outspoken. This medium let those who endure every pain to release their tense.

Regards,
SA.

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69 - Up and Down, happens all the time.

Peace be upon you reader(s)!

(This is an utterly emotional entry.)

Have you ever felt like you don't belong? Like, everything will be better without you in the big picture.

Like Bella Swan said, "I am unwanted and un-want-able."

As in, no matter how hard you try to be nice to others, they don't even appreciate your kindness. They don't even remember them - or worse, they can't even tell whether you're being nice or not. Everyone becomes happier when you're away - they go to someplace nice, eat luxurious food. When you're with them, everything gets bitter and boring. When they're talking to you, they talk strictly while with other people, they become all so goody-goody and sweety-sweety (?). It is hard regarding that you still love them no matter what. The bond is too strong, even the negative emotions can't overtake it.

Sometimes, it is as if they don't even care whether you've eaten or not. But then when you get sick, they blame you for not taking care of yourself. They get mad at you for not being where you should be but when you achieve something, they get all so "Oh I know her! We are very close together!". Ha?

Perhaps I should go somewhere else, where I belong.

If you've experienced this kind of emotion, then,
we are on the same boat.

Regards,
Amzyami.

3 comments:

  1. mushehApril 3, 2011 at 11:25 PM

    kalau semua orang tak perduli padamu, atau mengabaikanmu, pun meremehkan dirimu, bahkan melupakan kehadiranmu, jangan bersedih, dan janganlah sakit hati. Karena ALLA TA'ALA selalu perduli padamu, DIA akan selalu ada dan mencintaimu, yg terkadang CARA-NYA dalam encintai itu di luar dugaan dan ingin kita. Namun brsabarlah... karena kesabaranmu sdh meraih CINTA-NYA.

    cheers up friend =)

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  2. amzyamiApril 4, 2011 at 4:19 PM

    (Y) Thankyou Mushiiii :) Biasalah perempuan, emosi XD

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